hopeless romantic

I just got home from watching Ever After, a beautiful story about love that overcomes. And many questions are circling my mind, causing me to write them out so i can sleep. I wonder if too often we forget love. If we forget the beautiful, wonderful gift that God has gracefully granted us. I know i do. I know i think about all the things I want to do, all the places i want to go, all the people i want to care for, and make plans to tight for any "love" to fit in. It is true that Paul says, in 1 Corinthians, that if any man is able to not be married that he should stay single, but how can we forget that in Genesis God said that Adam wasn't right without Eve. But after eve was created, things were right. Things were complete. He made the perfect, beautiful companion for Adam, and yes she caused him to sin.. thus causing the fall of man.... but i'm sure they were very in love while they did it, haha i know.. poor arguement.. but its all beside the point. Leonardo Divinci in the movie Ever After said If you don't know love, than you don't know life. Have we forgotten the very essence of life, and tried to fill it with good intentions and busy work? I know my heart yearns to beat in time with someone elses'... it may sound a little lame, i even quiver a little writing it, but i am very excited for the day that I find my match, and can live happily ever after.

its been a while

Its been a while since i've written anything profound, anything with a deep meaning, anything at all clever. For a little bit i was drowning, i couldn't find what i was to do next or cared what i should be doing then. It was like i was running a three-legged race by myself, and knew that it would only be a matter of time before i fell flat on my face. And to be honest. I fell, and hard. People in life always have their secrets, their hurts, there pains, and i definetely have mine. I often doubt, that my God is as good as i'd like to think he is. I often doubt, but i often remember that I can't, and will never fully be able to understand the God who created the heavens and the earth, everly living thing on this planet, and much of the non-living. I will never understand the God who brought his son here for the sole purpose of him dying a long painful death. I will never understand, but i desire to find out more, as much as i can. So Jesus, thank you for reminding me how absolutely ridiculous i am, and how i need every ounce of me to be filled with as much as you, so i can get through this day.