Saturday, May 06, 2006

Finding joy

Be Joyful! Be incredibly joyful because Jesus loves you so dearly. ARR once again, i'm so frustrated. I'm so uncontented, I feel so stuck. I have absolutely no idea what to do. I have absolutely no clue. Jesus Christ, you love me, you hold me in your arms so closely that i can sometimes feel you breath down my neck as goosebumps cover my body. You love me with a love that no many beautiful words could be laced together to create a picture of that love. You're too huge, too large, creater of the heavens and the earth, and to powerful, yet so small and humble, and lovingly help me through my life. This morning tears filled in my eyes as i quickly skipped an email that said "thousands may die from starvation today." i just skipped it like i've skipped too many, saying, not right now, i can't help now, i don't have money to send, i'm unable to go, i just don't know what to do. We could talk for days about why churches in this area stink. But where would we get, in the exact same spot as i am now in. Complaining, creating a place where i'm never satisfied with anything and become bland and insensitive to the joys of life. But i want to live i want to sing as loud as i possibly could, i want to rock out on guitar and shout "Jesus i love you." I want to dance as if i will never stop, i want to laugh like there is no pain. Be joyful, but conscious of what we can do. Friends, lets see how we can change this world, lets find out how live activly in it, yet have the joy of children in the sunshine. Lets experience the life given with the strength to endure it. Let us love. Let us serve. Let us be the Jesus the world needs to see. Let us be nothing else.