Ye of Little Faith 2

i believe this will happen a lot... it usually does.. God kicks my ass.. and once again it happened.
A little background in point form:

• I went to Romania and worked with orphans and abandoned babies
• i met a wonderful 5-month old baby named Marion Gheorghe
• Gheorghe when i got there, didn't respond to sounds, to actions, he didn't cry, smile, kick, react to anything.
  
• The hospital staff said Gheorghe had "brain problem" and would never be normal, and therefore was not worth our time
• We decided differently
• We loved him, hugged him, worked with him, cheered him on, kissed him, loved him
• Gheorge started responding!
  
• Hospital staff was amazed.
  
• I left Romania
• He continued to progress
• then they kicked the volunteers out of the orphanage
• Gheorge started to regress
• Hospital staff decided they were going to send him to a orphanage for disabled children.
• I wept.
  

Okay, now to stop point form. I was angry. Incredibly angry. That they would forget the beautiful spirit of this baby. I worked at an orphanage with disabled children. I knew how bad they were. I knew.. and I had could not stand the thought that a baby i had loved so deeply was being thrown away.. to a place of hopelessness. I was so incredible sad. I was mad at God for not keeping him safe, not staying with him as i left. I was hurt. I didn't want to pray, i didn't want to talk to a God that would abandon a baby such as this. I didn't want to trust a God that would do that. so i didn't pray. Thank you for those that did pray.
Today i talked to my friend that was in Romania, and she told me that this baby, didn't end up going to the orphanage. That a new doctor at the hospital has told the others that this baby is not disabled, but he suffers from neglect. but with help, will walk, and will be a typical child. She also said that a couple from the churhch is going to sign the papers to take him home every weekend.

PRAISE THE FREAKING LORD Y'ALL
my heart rejoices, but is slightly ashamed. I had lost hope. I had lost my heart. I had lost the Lord's mercy. So Lord. Forgive me. Forgive my disbelief. Be with that beautiful boy. Send angels to watch over him. Send love to shield him. And thank you Lord for never, ever leaving his side. You are a merciful God!

my heart is content.